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Obligatory bitch post

Posted by CryogenChaos - July 18th, 2008


Everyone around me is succeeding.

I am failing.

I don't mean academically, I mean in pretty much every aspect I can think of. I've gained noticable weight, I'm depressingly lonely, my days consist of me trying to find something to do on the computer, my friends beat the everloving hell out of me frequently (which is attributed mostly to my spinelessness), any project I dive into ends in spiky failure due to either lack of skills/resources or people hating them, I've got no prospects for the future, I'm unemployed, I don't have any useful skills, and I'm pretty much turning into one of those guys you see at a McDonalds register and think, "God, I pity them".

I realized all of this about a week ago, and then my mind, in a valiant effort to cheer me up, told me to compare myself to other people. And then I did a nosedive into madness.

My friends all either have careers lined up, have a girlfriend, or are content with where they are.

And then I look at the world around me. People my age (and even younger!) are making something of themselves. They're all finding happiness in what they're doing, and a good percentage of them have someone to be happy with, so this isolates me even more as discontent.

But then you would think, "Talk to someone about this!" Well, there are a few problems with this. If I try to talk to a family member, they'll sugar coat everything and just tell me to try and cheer up. If I try to talk to a friend, I'm greeted with a wave of "Stop yer bitching" followed by a smack on the back of the head for talking. And I can't afford to see a psychiatrist.

So I'm pretty much a horrible mess. But you know what? I'm not depressed about all of this. You would think so, considering the tone i've put forth, but I'm really not. I'm just tired of it all. I'm tired of being "that guy". You know, the guy who everyone pities but simultaniously blames because he brought every bad thing upon himself. I'm tired of failing horribly at everything I try to do. And, if you recall the last news post, I'm tired of not being able to improve.

I'm tired of it all, man. I mean it.

Oh well, enough about my problems, how are you guys doing?


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I'm just great! Don't worry about it, that's the problem that comes with BEING a Newgrounder! :)

I'm fine, thank you.

Just in a rut in your life.

Seem like an alright person to me, don't be so down on yourself. Honestly if all your pals do is beat you and act like dicks. They honestly don't seem like friends at all.

<a href="http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nsCXZczTQXo">http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nsCXZc zTQXo</a>

This will cheer you up. It works for me. For some time. Then I go right back to repressing it and playing video games.

Wow...That is so like me, It's scary. Seriously, the same freaking story. Except for 1 thing. I have ambition of becoming something. That's it, i know what you need to do.

One: Change your attitude. Seriously, just change your thinking. If you want to become something, you have to want to become something. Life isn't just going to hand all it's epicness on a shiny silver platter.

I fail at everything, i know it and accept it. But i will always strive for better. Everyone has their talents and dreams. But you always need to work for them. Stick in there and become something. Do it for Newgrounds (including us lovable furries)