Everyone around me is succeeding.

I am failing.

I don't mean academically, I mean in pretty much every aspect I can think of. I've gained noticable weight, I'm depressingly lonely, my days consist of me trying to find something to do on the computer, my friends beat the everloving hell out of me frequently (which is attributed mostly to my spinelessness), any project I dive into ends in spiky failure due to either lack of skills/resources or people hating them, I've got no prospects for the future, I'm unemployed, I don't have any useful skills, and I'm pretty much turning into one of those guys you see at a McDonalds register and think, "God, I pity them".

I realized all of this about a week ago, and then my mind, in a valiant effort to cheer me up, told me to compare myself to other people. And then I did a nosedive into madness.

My friends all either have careers lined up, have a girlfriend, or are content with where they are.

And then I look at the world around me. People my age (and even younger!) are making something of themselves. They're all finding happiness in what they're doing, and a good percentage of them have someone to be happy with, so this isolates me even more as discontent.

But then you would think, "Talk to someone about this!" Well, there are a few problems with this. If I try to talk to a family member, they'll sugar coat everything and just tell me to try and cheer up. If I try to talk to a friend, I'm greeted with a wave of "Stop yer bitching" followed by a smack on the back of the head for talking. And I can't afford to see a psychiatrist.

So I'm pretty much a horrible mess. But you know what? I'm not depressed about all of this. You would think so, considering the tone i've put forth, but I'm really not. I'm just tired of it all. I'm tired of being "that guy". You know, the guy who everyone pities but simultaniously blames because he brought every bad thing upon himself. I'm tired of failing horribly at everything I try to do. And, if you recall the last news post, I'm tired of not being able to improve.

I'm tired of it all, man. I mean it.

Oh well, enough about my problems, how are you guys doing?