So, after months of remember how my friends shamelessly neglected to invite me to go see WALL-E, and hearing how cool it was, I finally rented it. Overall, a very good movie, I loved it. But then, a little while after watching it, while I was in the middle of cooking some chicken, I had the strangest feeling. It was subtle, something one could easily brush off (which I invariably did). After eating my chicken and feeling so great, I decided to surf the Internet. And the damnedest thing happened: I had directed myself to the WALL-E Wikipedia article, and was reading about WALL-E and EVE, and in the other window I had opened up DeviantART and was looking up pictures of EVE, without even realizing it.

It was at this point I realized I had this weird sensation a few times before. It was a sense of emptiness, a sense of longing, a sense of broken-ness. And for the past few hours up until this very point, it has magnified a bit. This has happened before, always whenever I read or watch a fictional story about romance.

My friends, I am pining for love.

True, unbelievably strong love, something that, if everything else in my life fails, I have someone to be with, something to hold on for. Something that would make me look death straight on and say, "Yes, this is worth fighting to the death for."

And it's gotten so bad that right now, at this moment, I am on wikiHow looking up how to find love. I want what WALL-E and EVE have, the mutual love for each other. I want to find someone that I could grow old with and never, ever, EVER tire of seeing. One of my friends is in love, and there is no word to describe how envious I am of him.

Sadly, though, I have never been in love like that before, and I'm so emotionally jaded that I don't even think I know how to fall in love. I know it sounds like a paradox: the loveless longing for love, but it's strong enough that I'm writing about it on a public website to people i've never even met in hopes for advice and perhaps even a little hope to quell my aching heart.

Well, that might be a bit too much to ask for. I know those who would care enough to respond nicely would respond with something to the extent of "Don't worry, I'm sure you'll find someone". And, as appreciative as I would be of that, it's not what the hopeless romantic in me needs. However, any help, be it this kind of response or otherwise, would be wonderful.